I'm Elizabeth and God designed me to be an encourager, a dreamer, a story teller and most importantly, a Kingdom builder.
I’m not really sure where to start. I’m rarely lost for words, spoken or written. But I guess now is as good a time as any to come clean and say it like it is; I suffer from blog shame. The (first-world) struggle is real. I was actually so filled with shame about the status of my blog, that about two months ago I removed the dates from the posts. The last time I posted to my blog was August 5, 2014. Oh the shame!
If you’ve never heard the term “blog shame”, neither had I until this morning. It was on the top of my to-do list to write a “Why I Haven’t Blogged in Over a Year” post today. But it wasn’t until I scrolled through Facebook this morning and saw a post from blogging expert Christine Tremoulet that I discovered there was a name for how I was feeling. I met Christine through my dear friend and photographer Jane Ammon last Spring at WPPI in Las Vegas. Christine is an incredibly hip, cool and vivacious woman who actually named WordPress. Seriously. She named WordPress. You can find it on Wikipedia. Today Christine shared a post on her blog about overcoming blog shame. If you’re feeling it too, I suggest you take a few minutes to watch the video she included in her post.
So I guess I should answer the big question, why haven’t I blogged in over a year? Grammatically, that line should read “why I haven’t blogged in more than a year,” but I digress. The past year of my life has been hands down the craziest one I’ve ever experienced. It pales in comparison to any other year on record. Both in good ways and bad. And the story really starts closer to two years ago… but let me just try to give you the Cliff Notes version of the past 12 months. A year ago I was sitting alone in a studio space that I had created in the hopes of building a long-term business that would help provide financial stability for our family. The space was called Studio East and it was a collective studio/work space for creatives. It was beautiful and everyone who came in felt the same way. But for whatever reason it just never got off the ground. The rent was high, the location was further than maybe it should have been, and we never had more than a couple of photographers sign up to use it. And each day the debt was piling up. In total it made less than $2,000 ever and cost close to $40,000 over the period of about 9 months. Only five short months into business and it was clear that things weren’t going to turn out how I had planned. It was the first substantial failure in my life. I knew I had to get a real job and help to sustain my family in another way. And that’s when God did something AWESOME. He opened the door for me to work for Showit.
I have been using Showit for my website for 5+ years. I even had a small side business designing Showit websites for other photographers and creatives. But I had never thought that I would go to work for a tech company. To be honest, I really didn’t want to go to work for any company. I was spoiled by the freedom of small business ownership. And by freedom I mean wearing sweat pants most of the day, picking up my daughter from school every afternoon and getting to be myself, not some stuffy version of me in a suit. So I prayed for a job. I asked God to provide a job, even though I didn’t want one. I put my trust in Him that He would provide. Two weeks later, I was offered a full-time job at Showit. I now have a job that I love. A job that is so perfect for me and my talents, that it’s obvious it’s right where God wants me to be. I get to work from home quite a bit (I’m wearing Lucy sweat pants right now). I get to pick up Lily from school every day. I get to be exactly who I am. And, I gave away all of the suits in my closet. Of course, there’s a lot more to the story, but I think I should save that for another blog post.
All this to say, I’m making a committment to blog more. Which isn’t new. I’ve done it before. I’ve written it before. But this time is going to be different. Why? This time I’m going back to being raw and real. I’m kicking blog shame to the curb along with uncertainty, fear and anxiety. If no one reads it, so what? If nobody comments, okay then. If my most popular post (based on traffic) continues to be about a calf, well fine. Life’s not about comment counts and double tapped hearts. At least not real life. I want to use a different measuring cup for calculating success; because my cup overfloweth. This time I’m going to talk about a lot more than photography, because I am so much more than a photographer. This time I’m going to embrace what I have always believed to be true (since the age of about 11), I am a writer. I want to be a better writer. I want to write without fear of rejection. And most importantly, this time I’m not going to be afraid to put Jesus in the center of my writing. To do anything less is a lie. He’s at the center of my life, and that has made ALL the difference.
There’s something cathartic about putting words on paper (and on screen) and sending them out into the world on the wind.
I suppose I should also turn the dates back on for my posts.
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